My mum had what she thought was a cold for almost two weeks and said she was "getting better". Two days later mum first complained of an earache. I took her to GP immediately and the GP diagnosed her with an ear infection (16/5/15) in BOTH ears and sent her home with oral antibiotics and ear drops. GP told mum that she might vomit also, this is "common" with ear infections. Half an hour after seeing dr mum vomited and thought nothing of it, and went to bed. It was 11pm. The next morning (before 9am) when I checked on her, she was paralysed on the bedroom floor with "locked in syndrome" and I have no idea how long she was on the floor. At hospital they suspected and diagnosed bacterial meningitis quickly (given her condition and the detailed information about her GP appointment I had given). However mum suffered an aneurysm 40 hours later as a complication and we were told it was best to turn off her life support as the CT scan showed significant brain damage. Fast forward, it is 3.5 months later and I am struggling with the circumstances of her passing in addition to her not being here. i feel so terribly guilty for letting her sleep, I wake at night often and always relive that night. Why did I miss her stiff neck, she did have her eyes closed in the GP waiting room, these were signs. Why did the GP send her home and not suggest she go to Drs if she started vomiting at any stage? Why didn't I take her when she vomited instead of trusting the dr? I struggle with all this. There seems to be a lot of support out there for meningitis survivors but not for families of the deceased? My mum was my best friend. I live in Australia. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.