The one thing I have always wanted above everything else is to be a mum. My fiancé and I are planning our first pregnancy after our wedding in 2016. He wants three children. I just want the experience of a happy, healthy pregnancy and the happy, healthy baby at the end of it.
But, as my CP seems to have changed with age (I'm 24) I'm getting more and more worried about what pregnancy will be like for me. I'm in more pain in more places and feeling tighter, more tired and falling more.
Everything out there on the internet always seems to be geared towards what happens if the baby has CP. This is something that terrifies me all on its own... I know CP isn't hereditary in itself but aren't I more likely to have an awkward labour and distress baby? I am terrified of "pre-disposing" my baby to CP also.
I don't even know if it will be possible to carry a baby and then there's the terror of each fall, because there's nothing to stop those happening unless I just never leave the house. I'm worried the weight of a bump will bring me forward (my pelvis is already set forward due to CP) and we'll both be in more danger.
And birth - with my pelvis will it even be possible to give birth naturally?
I know that this is a lot of questions for something that hasn't even happened yet, but there's nothing I want more from my life than to see through a healthy pregnancy and I don't want to wait until there's a baby on the way to find out that I just can't cope with pregnancy, because that would break my heart.
I want to know that it is possible for those of us with CP to carry babies safely in all senses of the word before I can even think of doing it. These are my hugest concerns with this condition.