I'm not ok!

[SeymourGoode]

I'm still very angry about being poz. I was infected in March 2015 by a close friend who assured me they were not. I've always been so careful and can't believe at nearly 50 I'm having to cope with this.

[Boiseboy]

Seymour, it is perfectly reasonable to be upset about your diagnosis. But these days, you can live a long and healthy life if you take your meds and live a healthy lifestyle.

[Pdalibot]

No you are not curse this is your fault that's it sorry to be so abrupt but this is a reality you are responsible by your act just be careful with a condum will be enough. I know i've been there and I blame only myself

[osy68]

im sorry to hear about your diagnosis, stay strong. I was diagnosed at 24 years old i'm now 48, I can tell you there are mountains to climb but be assured there is light at the end of the tunnel, I wish you all the best x

[Ryan1979 in reply to osy68]

Just to say I find it inspirational when I read messages about people that are positive for many years. Newly diagnosed and feel hopeful when u read status like yours

X

[osy68 in reply to Ryan1979]

Thankyou & im living proof life goes on ... You have to deal withthe deck of cards your dealt...... Stay hopeful Ryan & tomorrow is another day xx

[Ryan1979 in reply to osy68]

I was really worried about the Meds but had no side effects. Do you think there is long term effects from the Meds. I have been assured that the new medication is much better than before with little side effect

[osy68 in reply to Ryan1979]

Meds effects are different for everyone. The only effect i suffered from was fat loss..... im happy thats all. New meds dont cause this & are less likey to effect you in anyway, but our bodies are all different. Im sure you'll be fine x

[mumzy in reply to osy68]

Hi

You are so true there are mountains to climb but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

I like your thinks can we chat more on [e-mail]

[Ryan1979]

Hey

I was diagnosed start of November and could believe it. However in reality the only person to blame is myself. I had in protected sex. Normally I'm careful but got caught up in the heat of the moment. I've not disclosed my status but dealing well and I was never ill before being diagnosed. I've been on the medication already not had any side effects 1 pill per day. Someone said to me continue as normal do what makes you happy and everything will be ok. It's treatable. If anything I feel better in a strange way. Stay strong don't let anger eat you up as at the end of the day it's not going away. Keep smiling don't wait to get to the light at the end of the tunnel smash out of it now.

[osy68]

Great words too ☀️

[SeymourGoode]

Despite my anger, I'm coping very well. Side effects on Triumeq? So far, so good. A bit of sleeplessness but to be honest, no biggie. I've always had problems sleeping, as I have a very demanding job. It put me off sex at first but that didn't last. I use stronger condoms now and won't do unprotected. What really surprised me was when I discussed my status with guys, the number of them who tried to get me to bareback them. I try not to to judge people but I won't do that ever and try to encourage them to think about what they're saying.

[Trotski]

After three years together and countless broken condoms my lover and I went to get tested, mainly so we could have sex and stop having to worry about protection. He had been a high end sex worker for much of the late seventies and early eighties so we prepared ourselves for the likelihood that we both were already positive; we both were negative. After reading an article about a population that is immune he traced his ancestry to this group and unbeknownst to me he began telling people that he was immune, having unprotected sex, and I think he truly believed it because after all he had done, he was negative. (He was very pretty, but not very smart.) Within a year and a half I walked in on him with a friend of mine whom I knew to be positive inside of him and that's when I got the full gyst of what had been transpiring. Although I was angry with him, I know I was solely responsible for what I had allowed myself to be exposed to. Someone could have a certified negative test result from that day and still be exposed and in turn expose you.

[johnboy66]

I was diagnosed 8 years ago and was also devastated. Now I have learned to face the fact that this is something that I have to be "aware" of the rest of my life but, I do NOT let it control me. I am active, healthy, and stay current on all medical things to ensure that I can stay this way.

It is understandable that you are angry that you became infected. Don't let this control you though.

Stay strong!

[SeymourGoode]

I'm not ok but I am if you see what I mean. I didn't expect this but I will have to cope with it somehow & hopefully come out the other side stronger.