My husband passed away on Christmas eve 2017. It was quite tough looking after him i stoll get haunted by his frail body in my head. I had the mental health nurses out to see me. My husband actually use to be my carer for years as i have a diagnosis of schizophrenia. But because he has been with me ive kept stable enough not to go in hospital. We went through all sorts in our life together ie living in bad areas bad neighbours etc etc. We only married last year in 5th feb 2017 we met in 1999. The wedding day was special. Rod knew his diagnosis of terminal cancer at the time of marriage. He was very emotional. But it was special. I suffer with lack of confidence with my feet issues. But i have jpined a group called smile a while that pick me up on a monday. This morning i have to push myself i get moments of feeling i cant cope. Its hard when im alone. But thank God i got a council bungalow near my parents just before My husband passed away. I prayed for this place. But i cant help feeling lonely sometimes i get overwhelmed. But if im around people that seem ok im fine. Is there anyone that can relate with me on here. Thanks Mandy my dog blake is like a best friend. My sister takes him out at weekends because i dont walk to well.