Hi this is Jo I thought I would write a post letting you all know just how afraid I am. My ctscan is tueday at ten. the longer i've went and the closer its gotten,I think that it is back. I've even had a nightmare about it. I thought I was such a strong person and I wanted to be that strong person for the others. oh god I wish it was over and I knew one way or the other. On top of all of that I won't know anything until the thirteenth a week away. I think that they should not make you wait it just makes it worse. I want my strength back. I want to be there for the others. I don't like being afraid. So help me be strong again and not weak. Thank you so much for reading this. @JoTaylor.