So as I face my final few days on my 2nd 2ww I feel typically mixed. I have this strange feeling that I just want to pause here for a while and enjoy this hope that I have, hope that our wee bean is growing inside. I know all too easily that come test day next week that hope can go in an instant and our dream collapses and our hearts are broken and then I will wish I was back in 2ww where at least I had hope. Does that make any sense? I love stroking my tummy and connecting with our embryo and I just so hope all my relaxation and mindfulness which has allowed me to feel much more connected to the process and our embryo this time has been worth it. To all you fab ladies out there thank you for ur support and your strength you all are truly inspirational and I feel very lucky to have found you. I guess out of every adversity we face there can always come good. To you all on here I wish you all the best with your treatment. I am off to hope that my dh and I also get some lucky wins at the rugby this weekend too and hopefully like the leprechauns we find our pot of gold next week too...ohh Jees I am talking leprechauns ok I am crazy remember it is the 2ww🍀🍀🍀🍀😜😜😜❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️Xxxx
Hoping for a bfp and wins at the rugb... - Fertility Network UK
Hoping for a bfp and wins at the rugby🏉🇮🇪
All the best vic keeping everything crossed you ll get your bfp.stay positive cx
A www thanks Hun...hope you are well and adoption process still going well..so exciting for you too xxx
Thanks we re in the middle of our training at mo. Last session 19th match. When is your test day?xx
That's great so then what happens?test day tuesday😨😨😨😨xxx
Good luck for tue will be thinking of you. ☺
we have to wait for our 6 month assessment apparently it can take a month or two to link you with a social worker. So hoping we won't have to wait too long xx
That has all come round so quickly😊😊😊has the training been helpful?bet you are getting very excited now xxx
Yea it has been fast think we ve just been so lucky we weren't made to wait 6 months after treatment and our prep groups have happened quickly. Still long way to go but hoping this time next year we ll have our child- hopefully you will too! Xx
Good luck and yes the bubble of 2ww can be nice as well as torturous lol xx
I know it is such mixed feelings...hope you are well..how are your timescales looking now? Xx
It's weird isn't it, you want time to rush by and then you don't. Sending baby dust your way x
what a lovely positive message - hope your calmness continues over the next few days & you get a positive on tuesday.
sending lots of love ✨✨✨✨
Cheers Mrs. .when you testing? How you getting on?xxx
Keeping everything crossed for you it will be my turn again next month. Please let it happen for us all xxx
Wishing you so much luck for next month xxx
Awww I completely understand your post! And want to wish you all the luck for test day! Hoping it's your BFP xx
Booooo to that rugby result! Are you Irish???
Ireland lost as its sent you all their luck for your BFP instead xxxx
Sending you loads of baby dust:)🎇🎆✨
Hope it a BFP. 🙂🍀🤞🏻
Thanks so much💜💜💜how are the twins?xx
Yeah they are doing well. Had another scan on Thursday, Twin A weighs 1 pound 10 ounces, Twin 2 weighs 1 pound 12 ounces. I'm starting to get a bit nervous now, now long to go. I'm 25 weeks now. My C section is scheduled for 36 weeks. X
Oh this is amazing. .so happy and excited for all of you xxxx
Thank you Hun x
I don't think it's strange to want to leave the 2ww wait, you sound like you're in a great frame of mind and you just want to continue. Wishing you all the best I really hope I manage to keep it together and am able to practice mindfulnes as I think it is helpful in grounding yourself. Have a lovely weekend xxx
Thanks honey. .how you doing??? Yeah the mindfulness and relaxation has really helped this time for sure..I would highly recommend..u was lent some cds specifically for fertility which were really useful xxx
I'm doing okay at the moment I've got ivf on the horizon so I'm in a good place right now, kinda of similar state of mind where you have all the hope on the horizon and you've waited so long for it and then when the time comes your nervous for the next stage and you don't want to know the outcome just yet.
Trying to be strict with myself to practice mindfulnes on a daily basis as it's so nice to feel centred and in control. I'm quite lucky that I have a friend who has gone through something similar and we were laughing saying we couldn't wait to get to a stage again where life becomes normal where your mind is occupied over buying a new dress or trying to decide which restaurant to book or where to go on holiday, we said we missed the trivial things that use to take up our time and occupy our time😂 Xxx
YeaH wouldn't that be nice..I think we all deserve lots of new dresses and nice meals😉glad you have timescale at least hopefully knowing that and relaxing then you never know what might happen xxxx
Praying you get your bfp and your pot of gold has been in you all along. Xx
Yes my lucky pot of gold..hoping my Irish husband is our lucky charm🍀🍀🍀😜😜thanks so much for your message❤️How you after your wee surprise??? Xxxxx
All the best! I'll be thinking if you, I hope your dreams come true xx
Thanks Mrs where are things at with you now after your last post?xx
🙏🙏 hope this is your time! Xx
I'm ok, last week was exceptionally hard as I've been diagnosed with Prothrombin Factor 2 and MTHFR, so I've been trying to piece together what that actually means. I was due to start another cycle next week but I don't know if they will continue with it now they know these extra things. I have my appt at my hospital tomorrow so will have to see how it goes xx
All the best, have everything crossed for your bfp xxxxxx sending lots of positive thoughts xxxx
Thanks I am grabbing all your lovely positive vibes and holding them close. .how's ur 2ww going? When do you test?how you feeling?xx
Haha you grab them and hold on tight xx 2ww going ok, surprisingly I'm not going too crazy lol having lots of cramps and lower back ach, but no sore boobs etc (except getting a sharp pain on and off in my left boob!) and feel tired, but apart from that ok lol
I'm now 6dp5dFET so not too sure what I should be feeling etc so hard to tell with all the medication pumping through me ..... test Thursday and preying and hoping for my miracle .... xxxx hope your feeling ok??? Xxxxx
Ahh vic you hold on to that hope and positivity! 🍀🍀Can only imagine how you must feel right now. Sending you lots of positive embie vibes xxx
Thanks Mrs I intend too🍀🍀🍀how you feeling after your bloody injection? Xxxxx
Haha 'your bloody injection' I read as if it was 'bloody nuisance those injections' 😂 I'm all good though thanks! Bumped into my nurse at acupuncture and she also said nothing to worry about 😃 The acupuncturist said my tummy was multicoloured 🙈 Xxx
Lol.. think I meant it both ways😉glad you got some reassurance..when is your next scan?my tummy never bruised at all..too much far there I reckon😉😉xxx
Haha I think I must just jab it in a bit too enthusiastically! Gotta get those hormones in deep! 
next scan is on Monday and then EC on weds all being well. When is your otd? Xxx
Oh so exciting. ..otd Tuesday. .big week for us both next week xxxx
Eek!! So close! Xx
Wishing you loads of luck for tomorrow vic! Got everything crossed for you xxx
Thanks hun how did scan go today? Xxx
Totally unrelated to IVF it was a cracking match last night in Cardiff..wish I'd gave been there. Proud to be Welsh ♥😁xx
Best of luck on your baby journey too.xx
Lovely post and completely makes sense. My friends keep asking me why I haven't started making plans to have our last frozen embie put back...im avoiding because while I'm not doing it there's still hope that that embie will be the lucky one! Once I do it, if it doesn't work, the hope is gone!! so completely get your thinking!
BUT if you have leprechauns in your camp then you have nothing to worry about cos the luck of the irish will be shining on your embie and a BFP is in the bag!!! I really wish that for u!! xxx
If your embryo is as positive and full of beans as you then I'm sure it'll be dancing round like a leprechaun. Your post made me play Final Countdown in my head! Good luck! Enjoy these couple of days as much as possible so you aren't worrying too much xx
Omg I love that tune. .it was my first ever ringtone😊thank you for your lovely message..away off to listen to some Europe. . Thanks for reminding me of that fab tune .how are you too?xx
Getting excited again. Saw someone with a BFP this morning who was going through DE IVF. Crossing everything alsways! x
xxOh vic, I'm not going to lie I teared up reading that. I think you're amazing, you're poised, you're positive and you're the perfect amount of crazy I can't tell you how much I want this to work for you. Hold on to those positive feelings with everything you've got but know that we're all holding on to them for you when you may have a little wobble. Sending love to you and your embie. You've got this girl x x x
Oh I teared up reading that..I think of you loads. .how you doing? I hope the pain is easing if even a tiny bit and if like me you went into planning mode..when you are ready I will happily share the changes we made as I know you were thinking dhea mind you maybe best to wait to see my outcome😯up very early this morning..can't sleep, feel sick and feel like af may be on her way so not feeling so positive today however got busy day and am taking my craziness back to vintage shop for a dress I saw in the window so hoping that might help.. lol. Thanks so much for your lovely message and I am sending you a huge hug xxxx
I'm glad you're distracting yourself with something lovely. Stay focused on that positivity. I'll definitely be coming to pick your brain sometime soon 😘 x x x
Just wanted to wish you luck for tomorrow!!☘☘xx
Thanks so so much xxxx
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