So 4 weeks ago I was coming up to 8 weeks pregnant and the smile on my face you could not remove it. And then I started to feel weird and got rushed to emergency scan. To be told our baby had no heart beat. Obviously we were devastated. 4 weeks on and I think of our baby every day . But every day gets a little easier. But we decided 2 weeks ago to relocate to nearer my family. We have decided to take a break for ivf. We have 1 egg still frozen . But we feel exhausted and as my body has physically suffered alot and mentally we have suffered alot . We've decided to move get new jobs and give it a year if not 1.5 years till we try again. I'm 33 this year and even though I always said I don't want to be an old mum. I just think we need to be selfish and take our time and enjoy life for a while. It's taken 4 years of our lives up and has made myself depressed and miserable.
I always wanted a family but I also love my husband and would never want to loose him. I'm still suffering hormones etc and feel we might be rushing the move and the jobs but maybe it's time ?