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Many of us are bound and under bondage and control by our many types of medical symptoms that prevent us from having a full life and effecting any treatment like dialysis that I need. My symptoms are so bad I can't sit for long periods of time I one place due to my bladder spasms and constant urge to urinate.
It's destroying my life. I can't go out and cos I haven't been out for years due to it I now get mild agrophobia, bad anxiety panic attacks and sometimes so bad I hyperventilate and only stop when I'm back in my comfort zone in my own home.
I jace social phobia and dialysis is an absolute nightmare for social reasons and with a bad spine and rid in my leg it's torture sitting still fit three to four hours three times a week. Then on top of that I have to suffer the withdrawal symptoms if feeling like I been sucked dry by a vampire leaving me in bed all evening and all day ?!!
So to those who are in an upheaval over their medical or mental symptoms I sympathise with you all.
We all need someone we can relate to and talk to who knows what we are feeling.
No fault of their own entirely but those with good health are just so ignorant sometimes to what we have to go through sometimes to the extend that we exaggerate?! Which is very hurtful comming from those close to you.
That's why it's good to have these forums to we that are suffering can connect with one another the way even our families and friends can't always understand the experience we go through cos they don't experience it themselves.
Those that have very supportive circle are very lucky and blessed. I have my children but they are too engrossed in their own lives. So I make the most of what I've got and use the mindset mostly I could be worse!!
Don't get me wrong I get my bad days if wallowing in self pity and anger resentment a rollercoaster of emotions but after the black cloud disappears after an episode. I become strong 💪🏾 again to practice positive mindfulness.
Most days it's easier said than done. But I'm fighting it everyday. I used to submit to it and bury myself in the bed for years. But lately I'm fighting it more and getting stronger each day mentally. If your mind is clear and happy you can deal with the physical symptoms easier I've learnt.
Plus for five years now I've been weaning off extra. Strong opiod prescription pain relief and learning to cope with the pain naturally and not b bunged up with more chemical poison that my body eventually gets immune too and deosnt help the pain but makes it worse with the toxin gathering up.
I've still got some toxin left to come out. Very painful but will not succumb to the pain relievers I have in prescription unless im in extremely severe pain to the point if passing out now.
I hope this post can relate to as many as possible and enlighten you in anyway possible.
I'm no role model. I have many episodes if different kinds mental physical physchological and emotional erratic mood swings and lots of bad days.
But when they pass. I've feel like I've been ten rounds in a boxing ring with mike Tyson either mentally emotionally physically or physchologically!! But I'm struggle but I force myself to stand up and fight it and beat it. Making me stronger each time I go though the fights!!
So stay strong my friends you not alone. And I know what m not alone 😊.
May you all be given strength for whatever trials tribulations tests sufferings and afflictions you may be experiencing.
xx💜xx
Love ❤️
Peace ✌🏾
Unity 👊🏾
Strength 💪🏾
Positivity/faith/hope🙏🏾
My personal Mantra 💯💜👍🏾
Sakinah111 🌹
