I do not,
Cannot,
Hide
my feelings.
Good thoughts,
Bad thoughts,
Controversial
thoughts that
Bring concern
Cannot stop
Me from
Putting down
On paper
Everything
My heart
And soul
Experience
In any given day.
I am afraid,
Afraid of my
Future,
Of what the
Next hour,
Next day,
next month,
May bring.
This morning
When I woke
I found it
Difficult
To stand,
Making several
Attempts with
My cane and
The bed post
for support,
I finally stood.
I wanted to cheer
But then the
Realization that
I now needed
To walk
Brought the tears.
I will not call for
Help.
Knowing that Robert
Is just a room away
I waited for the
Shaking to stop
And the tears
To dry up
Before commanding
My legs to walk,
And when they moved
Without a second
Command I knew
Today may be a better
Day than I thought.
And so with each
measured step
I made it down
The hallway
And into a
New day,
The fear still there,
but now hidden Behind
Determined eyes
Jupiterjane
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I wish I could put feelings on paper. It is almost impossible for me to be able to do that!
This week I have just begun to feel how week my right side is becoming (formally my strong, unaffected side), almost weaker than my left.
I now have a better understanding about the balance problem, not have a strong side to balance the other side.
At times, it is difficult to write. Don't like being headed in this direction.
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Thanks for your words and your determined eyes.
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Thanks for these words. They have helped me to try to stay positive as I certainly don't feel like this today. Obviously not going to be one of my better days, at least mentally.
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I guess we all have good days and bad days. It sometimes feels as though there are more bad days than good.
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