hi everyone recently I was dumped for the third time in my life and it wasn’t good or necessary most days I’m ok with the disorder I love with as long as I have the constant hope of healing one day with someone who loves and adore me by my side, but with this last break up I don’t have the Will to even look at another person I won’t lie being with this guy wasn’t the healthiest but he seemed to care until I set a boundary and then I get the attempts to gaslight me into believing it was all in my head and again I found myself footing the bill which I am
Usually a very nice person but I learned that dating with this disorder people tend to use me I gave away so much money to these guys in my last three relationships I had to ask myself why and now can I get out this constant cycle to get some sense of self worth so I won’t over extend my hand anymore and so I won’t give up on every finding someone to love