Hey guys, have forgotten to introduce myself.
well. Dont really know what to say. I got the T.
Got it the first time when I was 19/20 but never really got bothered with it, it was fairly low, it was in my left ear and high pitched. No problems sleeping, no doctors, no meds no nothing, I just habituated and went on with life. That kind of changed some 2 months ago. That blasting firealarm I tell you! My firealarm at home just got crazy and went off for no reason, malfunction or whatever. Before I could stop it, well, MORE tinnitus! the left ear T is now way louder, and I got a new friend on my right ear, which also is in another freq. So now I have Tinnitus in stereo and in different frequenzies.
First weeks was hell. But once I got to my first doctors appointment I got some pills to help calm me down and sleep. that was ca 2 weeks ago. Im doin fairly ok. Some days are shit, some days are ok. Like everybody else with T I miss the silence. I need maskers during the nights and when goin to bed. But atleast I can sleep.
Im calling tinnitus TROLLITUS.. yes. Because it can troll you in so many ways..
Im hopefull that I will eventually learn to habituate. I managed it the first time around, so I should be able to do it now too. I hope. Ive had enough of catastrophic thinking and anxiety and all that crap. It only makes it worse. But it is hard, because I can hear it all the time during the day. A couple of days ago I went to a 2nd doctor that was an ear specialist that also has Tinnitus, so I kind of put my trust in him. Well, he just went on giving me a subscription on ADs (mirtazapine) to sleep better and to help reducing the loudness of T. I got suspicious. Did some digging and reseach and found out that ssri ADs can be directly harmful and worsen T, and also give you alot of other problems. WTF.. well what ever, Im not gonna touch them. Ototoxic crap.
I will just have to live on a day to day basis now and pray and hope for the best.
Thats all from me. Have a nice day and kick some T butt.
/C