So I'm a 23 year old female who has been drinking VERY heavily for the past year, and moderately heavy before that between the ages of 18-22. Depression and toxic company led to me drinking large amounts of liquor pretty often occasion and drinking a bottle of wine or a 6 pack daily. It got to the point where I knew this was very damaging and eventually cut back to only wine, but still a large amount of wine on a daily basis. I found it disturbing how hard it was for me to stop drinking, alcoholism runs in my family. However, for the first time in the past few years, I haven't had a drink for the past two days and do not feel compelled to.
But, I don't feel compelled to due to how disgusted and scared I am after researching Alcoholic Liver Disease. I came to that due to irregular bowel movements... very few and light colored. Definitely not something I really want to discuss with anybody. It's been going on for a few months now and I made an appointment to see the doctor and I'm scared.
Am I thinking too hard about this?