Not suicidal anymore

[Johnnl]

When I first posted on here 2 months ago I wrote about feeling devastated at the news that i had to have a triple heart bypass, The news sent me into a depression ive never ever known before, Why, How, No, Its Impossible, Cant be true, All these things went through my mind, Im a very fit guy, eat clean, dont drink or smoke, No must have been a mistake, However I should have known better but I refused to accept it, Im from a family of 10 and out of 10. 6 of us have hereditary heart issues, all have had stents or pacemakers fitted.

After my diagnosis I went through test after test after test, and was waiting for the dreaded appointment to go into hospital, However 2 wks ago i found myself in A&E following a slight heart attack, I was admitted and the cardiologist said were going to keep you in hospital and send you to sheffield for the operation, I was mortified, I begged the doctor (like a child lol) please i dont want to be cut open, Is there anything possible you can do, He must have

got fed up and said he will speak with the surgeon in sheffield, He came back and said because of how you are we are going to try something, But it will be extremely painful, I was transferred to sheffield, went into theatre and they put 6 stents and a balloon in, The pain was out of this world so much so that when they finished I was being taken out of theatre when i went into shock, My thoughts were< this is the end Lol.

Forward 6 days im back at home, Really tired because of the amount of meds im on But they will be decreased shortly.

Now I am ecstatic I feel great, That cloud has lifted and in a month or so normal service should be resumed 😂

I didnt post again after my first post but I followed everyday on this site to see how other people coped with it, but most of all I am super impressed at how you guyz come together to help each other, I was overwelmed by the msgs i got especially from people like Bekind28 and Blue 1958, (you really really did help me).

I owe this website and you guyz so much, You really dont understand how much a simple msg can affect someones view on a horrible situation.

Love you all xxx

[Heyjude31]

Hello Johnni, I am so pleased and happy to hear of your progress. Take your time, try not to do too much too soon, and all will be fine. You are right about all our fellow hearties on this forum they really are a special bunch. As you say BeKind and Blue1958 are both xtra special. Take good care, and best wishes for your recovery. Judi

[Johnnl in reply to Heyjude31]

Thankyou Judi I really appreciate it xx

[Hidden]

Thank you for all your kind words, you are truly inspiring the way that you have traveled from the depth of your mental journey to once again regain the life you so love.

Sometimes as we concentrate on our physical health we forget the main controller of it all, our minds.

Keep taking care and realise that your special { we already know }

[Johnnl in reply to Hidden]

Thankyou blue, That means a lot to me. And your right, Sometimes we have to step outside the box to get a better perspective on things, Its one lesson Ive really taken onboard x

[Hidden]

Hello

I am so pleased you are mentally feeling a lot better than you was even though your reaction was quite normal in my opinion for so many of us when we get that news but you sound in such a better place now and have also got your stents and balloon and on the road to recovery

Had you posted sooner I could have told you that you would have been fine in Sheffield as that is where I had my triple Bypass

I hope you keep going from strength to strength now and you know where we are if you need to talk

I am so pleased to see your update x

[Johnnl in reply to Hidden]

Thankyou Bekind, I feel amazingly good after it all, infact im down for a spot of sunbathing today, life is so good again x

[Becksagogo]

Thats the beauty of this forum. We have been there and understand what you are going through. Whilst not medically trained, we have experience and are quite happy to speak about good and bad experiences. I'm so pleased to hear that both physically and mentally you are getting better. Please stick around and offer your knowledge to the next bunch of hearties who are just starting out on their journey.

[Johnnl in reply to Becksagogo]

Thanks Becks, oh i will for sure..😇

[IronGirl68]

What an amazing post, so happy for you. Yes, the bunch of hearties on here are super super special ♥️

[Johnnl in reply to IronGirl68]

Oh you really are, when your down you just read bk on the msgs, and then your back up again 😇

[Oaks6]

My goodness you’ve been through a lot. I had 3 stents fitted 5 years ago and struggled to walk before the procedure. I needed counselling afterwards but I felt so much physically better. I’m so pleased you’ve got through this, it’s encouraging for us all !

[Shellac in reply to Oaks6]

I needed counselling just after one stent ❤ feel for everyone going through all this

[Johnnl in reply to Shellac]

To be honest shellac im on cloud 9 at the moment, im really looking forward to getting bk to normal and im in one piece lol, But thankyou

[Johnnl in reply to Oaks6]

They did say they very rarely fit 6 stents and a balloon in one go, but you know, i feel amazing if not tired with the meds..thankyou x

[Sunnysummerdays]

Well done Johnnl👍

[Johnnl in reply to Sunnysummerdays]

Thankyou x

[Shellac]

Wow how scary for you glad you are feeling better but take it easy and don't run before you can walk ❤

[Johnnl in reply to Shellac]

Will do shellac x

[Anon2023]

Hi. It’s lovely to read that you are doing so well. You’ve been through a lot but it sounds as if your recovery is going really well. Even in times of trauma we are often stronger than we think. You’ve now come through the other side and I hope from now on that you continue to have good health and happiness 😊

[Johnnl in reply to Anon2023]

I certainly will anon, life is good again, thankyou x

[Fullofheart]

So pleased to hear you are doing better. Really appreciate your honesty and your commitment to get back and update us. Take it slow and easy!

[Johnnl in reply to Fullofheart]

Thankyou, really appreciate it x

[Afibflipper]

Hope you continue to make good progress

[Johnnl in reply to Afibflipper]

I will do for sure, thankyou x

[SkiMonday]

Great post and I'm glad to see you're on the mend.

Seems we react in a host of different ways to heart issues. When I had my heart attack I'd just finished training up to Marathon distance, the whole thing felt completely surreal to me.

[Johnnl in reply to SkiMonday]

Thankyou ski, when ur lifestyle involves lots of training, eating well and generally a healthy lifestyle, you really dont expect this to happen, but thankyou pal 👍

[Jetcat]

Your on the rite road now mate.👍👍

[Johnnl in reply to Jetcat]

I hooe so, Thankyou jetcat

[Insert]

Just read your post I’m so happy for you and thank you for posting that it will of given so many hope. My lovely husband and best friend of 40 years has DCM, we have bad days but every day is a new day and I value every day. Your post will inspire others to live and enjoy and hope that each day is a better day, don’t look back keep moving forward. Love to you, stay well x

[Johnnl in reply to Insert]

Thankyou so much insert, I really appreciate it x

[Beatle45]

Oh dear, I thought stent insertion wasn’t supposed to be painful. You might have scared a lot of people.

[Johnnl in reply to Beatle45]

My brothers had them so have my sisters, they are not painful, but i had 6 fitted in one go plus a balloon, it took 2 hours and thats quite a procedure for the heart x

[MumaLines]

Hello Johnni, fantastic news, what a sigh of relief for you. You are on the road to recovery now so take it easy and smile

[Johnnl in reply to MumaLines]

Thankyou so much mumalines x

[Blackcat99]

Oh, so pleased that life is looking up for you now - and thanks for letting us all know. Take care of your health, both physical and emotional, and really enjoy feeling better!

[Johnnl in reply to Blackcat99]

Thankyou so much Blackcat x

[Pheasant1234]

Hi. Where are you from. I’m in Barnsley

[Johnnl in reply to Pheasant1234]

me too😀

[Pheasant1234]

Where abouts in Barnsley

[MumaLines]

Wow, fantastic news and I think we can hear it in yours words of what a difference this has made to your state of mind Johnnl.

Onwards and upwards for you now but do take it easy, a little by little.

[Johnnl in reply to MumaLines]

Thanks muma, oh yes im following the handbook on this one..little by little, step by step, Dont want to be in this posdition ever again x

[Bishop1]

Great news you're on the road to recovery. Do your breathing exercises often and walking helps. Marvellous you feel so well. Enjoy reading all the posts. Wonderful site, so informative and a great group of people.