I'm back! Sensitive post warning pregnant again.

Hi it's been ages since I've been on here. I was seriously depressed after losing Amelia at 20 weeks pregnant. It was a huge shock as she seemed such a viable pregnancy. We had a funeral it was wonderful to celebrate her life and acknowledge her as part of our family she will always be our second daughter . We her cremated so she is with us always. The post mortem revealed no obvious cause of death and going forward with another pregnancy that was the best news that we could have had. The consultant has agreed I can have weekly heartbeat checks until my 20 week scan she was so lovely saying her door is always open 🙂 people say negative things about nhs but my care has been amazing 🤩

We tried after my period and 12 days post ovulation and got only got a positive test! Feeling very blessed 🙂 We both believe Amelia had a hand in it ❤️

Super early days we know the risks of testing early seeing a chemical pregnancy but are keeping our fingers crossed all goes well

I hope you are all okay and will have a good catch up with what everyone is up to Xx

[Sunshine92]

A true rainbow after an awful storm 🌈⛈!

Will be thinking if you and wishing you all the best Jess, keep us updated! So pleased for you. Lots of love xx

[Hidden in reply to Sunshine92]

Aww thank you I really hope so very early days☝🏻🌈 hope you and your little boy are well? Xx

[MissSaoPaulo]

Wow Jess, that's incredible, congratulations. I imagine you're very anxious though, so sending some positive energy your way!! I think Amelia is a little Angel now watching over you all xxx

[Hidden in reply to MissSaoPaulo]

Thank you. We all get nervous but hoping for the best but cautious of things could go wrong, every pregnancy has start from somewhere! We hope we can give Francesca a living sibling.😍 I believe Amelia is around us - I can smell her quite a lot (especially when I picked up her ashes )every mother knows their baby's smell. Once this toy started on its own started playing without anything there to activate it sure that was Amelia 😂 How is Millie now? I heard she had COVID19 that's awful poor little girl.

Good with the FET hope you can give Millie a sibling 😍Xx

[MissSaoPaulo in reply to Hidden]

Millie's smashing now, thanks Jess. Back to her usual daredevil self!! We had to put the FET off because of isolation but next month it's go, go, go for us, so fingers crossed xxx

[romaluna2015]

Congratulations Jess . All the very best . Lots of love and hugs! I’m only ever a message away 💜💜💜💜

[Hidden in reply to romaluna2015]

Aww thank you fingers crossed all goes well early days ☝🏻 I hope you and the girls are okay? Xx

[romaluna2015 in reply to Hidden]

We’re all good thanks lovely xx

[ttcemmie]

That is absolutely amazing! Congratulations! xxxx

[Hidden in reply to ttcemmie]

Aww thank you keeping fingers crossed for 🌈👶 I hope your pregnancy is going well? You must be quite far now? Xx

[ttcemmie in reply to Hidden]

Yeah..... just about 24 weeks now. Not a day (hour?) goes by without me worrying about the pregnancy though (a rainbow one itself). Really best wishes for your pregnancy. xxx

[Hidden in reply to ttcemmie]

Bless you lovely. I remember it well with Francesca my nerves were awful throughout the entire pregnancy spent looking over my shoulder. Everyone else was so excited and I was sad I couldn't be because I was scared of it going wrong 🥲 With Amelia I let my guard down after 12 week scan I genuinely believed all would be okay. And she should've been but we was very unlucky rare to lose a baby so late- please hold that in mind. This time I'm taking it a day at a time and once we pass 20 week scan I hope I can breath out a bit.. none of the post mortem results suggest a future pregnancy could end up like Amelia but still we feel better and after then we will tell friends and family. I've told my parents, my older grown up son( who was devastated for the loss of Amelia more for me🥲) my sister my husband has only told his mum won't tell his brothers until 20 weeks scan. Before Amelia I believed you were probably be safe after 12 weeks scan as most woman are. Definitely has frightened me. The medics said most women are fine at that point. Every week is a week closer 😍 you're over half way it goes faster after 20 weeks then slows down at full term! Mind you I'm so busy with Francesca I won't have that luxury this time 😂can't believe she's 2 in June they grow up far too quickly don't stay babies long 🥲 see a little personality forming she's a little diva very cute tho 😂😍 Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy hope all goes smoothly Xx

[ttcemmie in reply to Hidden]

I'm glad you're sounding so positive and are looking forward. You're right about just being unlucky and there's no reason these pregnancies shouldn't go well, but I think a lot of us on this journey don't feel like we are the luckiest people! Francesca sounds like a delight and I'm so pleased you have another one on the way. Best wishes for your pregnancy. xxxxxxxxxxx

[Shelleybean]

Lovely news! Wishing you lots of luck with this little rainbow Jess xx

[Hidden in reply to Shelleybean]

Aww thank you, 🤞🌈👶 I hope you and your little boy are well? I expect he's probably getting mobile now! ❤️Xx

[Shelleybean in reply to Hidden]

We’re all good here thank you lovely. Yes, he’s rocking on all fours almost ready to go, so I’m making the most of this last little bit of relative peace 😆 xx

[Materialbarbie]

I wondered where you had been, so sorry my lovely for your loss❤️! But what amazing news to hear a lovely little rainbow on the way 🌈! Lots of love to you all xxxxx

[Bluelady-sing]

CONGRATULATIONS

[Hidden in reply to Bluelady-sing]

Thank you Xx

[Lowamh]

Nice to see you back Jess, congratulations!

[Hidden in reply to Lowamh]

Thank you Xx

[Cinderella5]

Awww Jess, you are so strong!! Its so lovely that you were able to have a celebration of Amelia's short life. I'm so pleased that you have been able to try again. Wishing you all the best for this new pregnancy and new beginning!😘xx

[Hidden in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you not sure I am that strong definitely have a different take on things now going to enjoy each day and take things as they come ❤️I hope your pregnancy is going well must be due quite soon ? Xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to Hidden]

Well you are strong in my eyes, both of you are!! Everything seems to be going ok so far Jess, thank you! The nerves are never far away but getting there, 25wks so still a wee bit to go yet.xx

[Solly-44]

Oh Jess I’m so sorry for your loss of your little Amelia. I can’t even imagine. I never got to say before because by the time I saw your post, you were taking a break from the site. I’m glad you got to hold her a funeral and that you’ve had great care since - nothing will heal that pain but these things do help you to keep going.

And huge congratulations to you, I’m so happy for your good news. Lots of love xx

[Hidden in reply to Solly-44]

Thank you, it was a huge awful shock but the funeral celebrated her life and she was acknowledged to be part of our family. My husband carried her little coffin and read out our letter to her he was so brave 🥲 we hope this is our rainbow baby not that replaces Amelia never she'll be always be our second daughter 💞 how are things with you ?Xx

[cmbxm]

Incredible news, amazing that Amelia will be a big sister ❤️ congratulations xx

[Kyell2]

Aw lovely news Jess. This is fab news especially after everything you have been through. Congratulations 😊 x