Just wanted to post an apology. I have only posted on this site 3 times in total and 2 of them have led to negative responses. It is not my intention to cause bad feeling amongst you and for that I am sorry. When I first posted I was feeling very alone and negative and due to replys I received from most people I decided not to post again as I was left feeling even more upset that even those in similar situations to my own didn't appear to understand. I continued to read posts every day and started to feel more at home with it but after todays post I am going to give it up as a bad idea, this site is obviously not for me. Once again I am sorry for any bad feeling I have caused.