ISVA Visit.

[Poulson]

Hi Ladies.

I have had another visit from the ISVA lady. She said that when the court case is over I may get compensation from the criminal injuries board for all the trauma I have been through. She also told me she is a survivor herself. She is so helpful and understanding. I am going to work tomorrow and I am going to wear my Christmas jumper and Christmas hat that lights up. I can't wait to see to see the kids again. It helps as I have no contact with my daughter and very little with my son and granddaughter.

I went to town the other day and I was wearing my green dress and green overcoat and leather coat and a complete stranger stopped me in the street and said to me "I like your outfit." It made my day. I have been discharged from mental health services now thank God. They have just compounded all the suffering I have been through, they have not helped me at all.

I will keep you up-dated.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

[Ellie_at_APP Partner]

Hi Poulson

It's good to hear your news. I hope that work goes well and you enjoy working in the school.

It's so good that you are getting support from the lady from ISVA, and that she is lovely and supportive.

Though I know things are difficult and you have been through so much in your life, I do hope that you have a lovely Christmas and new year too, with your husband and neighbours.

Take care,

Ellie

[Pikorua Volunteer]

Look after yourself Poulson.

I am so happy that you have found trust in the woman from ISVA. Compassion is sometimes the only way forward as I have experienced with mums on this forum.

One can feel so truly lost, despite people loving you. Sharing the fear and pain, but also all those happy moments truly makes this "band of members" pretty special.

Wishing you a restful Christmas and health and happiness in 2020.

x

[Bluelady-sing]

The Mental Health system did not help?

[Poulson in reply to Bluelady-sing]

Dear Blluelady-sing.

No, the mental health system failed me miserably. They have accused me of all sorts of things, like my ex-husband did. I sued them for medical negligence in 2006 after my ex-husband died of swine flu. I was awarded £25,000 They have diagnosed me with Paranoid Schizophrenia, Schizoaffective Disorder, Post-Partum Psychosis, Post-natal Depression, Bipolar and PTSD, all of which I have proven the Health Authority wrong.

I have researched my symptoms and have come to the conclusion that I have Complex PTSD. I have been physically, sexually, narcissistically, financially and psychologically abused all my life from being a child. I was bullied from being a young child, which has all impacted my mental health.

I suffer constant flashbacks and nightmares, but because the diagnosis of Complex PTSD is not in the DSM they will not treat me for it. I am the victim, but have been made out to be the perpetrator. I am now discharged from mental health services, and am taking my dysfunctional family to task for the abuse they have done to me.

Best Wishes XX

[Bluelady-sing]

How did you prove the health authority wrong? Did you sue?

Are the family members being imprisoned ?

[Poulson in reply to Bluelady-sing]

Hi.

Yes, I sued the Health Authority. My brother and cousin are being investigated at the moment. It is in the polices hands.

My mother and father are narcissists and my brothers are abusers, sexually and financially. Enough is enough now. I can't stand anymore of their lies and manipulation.

I read the Bible and believe in Karma and what goes around comes around. I used to tell my husband that they will have to pay to a higher power, but now they are going to have to answer to me. I have so much knowledge and recollection about my family, that I have decided to write my own side of the story.

If my dead relatives knew, which I know they do, what I have experienced at the hands of my family and the Health Authority they would be turning in their graves. I know God is watching over me.