Hi All, I am new to the forum having just been diagnosed this week, and been turning the whole situation over in my head this last few days, while also getting used to be being on Metoprolol.
The thing is this:
I am English but have lived in the USA for about 25 years. I've been married to a very difficult and somewhat naively manipulative American woman for 23 years (married at the end of '94), and the marriage has been up and down with a lot of DOWN. I've suffered terrible anger and stress issues throughout this entire time and have been saying for years that I will get sick if I continue to let her get to me. We also in the past 9 years have had three children, who I love to bits.
This past week, since being diagnosed, I have slowly come to the conclusion that my A-fib has been caused by these decades of stress and anger and I am seriously considering leaving her. I've threatened it many times but she's made it difficult to leave and generally come across as unstable, etc., and I've foolishly stayed with her. It's my fault for not leaving a long time ago, but this time it's serious.
Does anyone have advice, or examples or ANYTHING to offer me, as I wrestle with this awful situation?
I feel a LOT better now I'm on the Metoprolol, by the way, but my continued anger towards her is triggering small episodes, which is why I'm thinking I need to leave if I have a chance at surviving this condition for any length of time.