I Feel Great, What's Wrong With Me?

[Frankenski]

Just passed my eight year anniversary with stage 4, and I feel better now than at any time since my Dx. And, there are reasons for this.

1) Two Uro's agreed I had St. 4, with Lymph Node involvement. Nope, just St. 4. Two points in my Biopsy Report conflict with each other. One statement says, "?Possible Lymph Node Involvement", the other says "Possible Perinueral Invasion". Nope, Nope.

2) Dx'd with a bladder blockage, but not told or treated for it. Three years later, I was able to pee standing up again. It was a painfully long time.

3) Dx'd with tension headaches, caused by depression, due to the stress of having PCa. Nope, Sinusitis. Found during a dose of Amoxicillin, for a tooth infection. Another five years.

4) No, there can't be more.

Now, I'm going to have to fight my way back to some semblance of what I once was. But, FFS, I feel a whole lot better today than I have in a long, long, time.

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[Hidden]

8 years? That's all? Your just getting in gear. What's 8 + 8? Yup that's you.

Nice work but show me another 8 banger.

Of course what do I know?

[Frankenski in reply to Hidden]

I will get there, and beyond, brother. Today I was thinking about what I want to live for, and I want to see Liam graduate high school, see him graduate college, see him meet and marry a fox, and have a family. He's five, that's not too much to ask for, is it?

[Hidden in reply to Frankenski]

I found out many years ago that most things are survivable if you want it bad enough.

[Frankenski in reply to Hidden]

I know, you're proof of that. Thanks for your service.

[willstain in reply to Frankenski]

Sounds like a vicarious life to me, all those projections on one so young are bound to lead to disappointment. What about you living your life and leave others to live theirs'? Best of luck in the challenges that lay ahead!

[jmurgia in reply to willstain]

For heaven's sake, he just wants to see a child grow up!

What's wrong with that?

[willstain in reply to jmurgia]

Nothing wrong with that, just don't project what you want the child to become, give him the freedom to do as he wishes.

[Frankenski in reply to willstain]

What's wrong with you?

[Frankenski in reply to willstain]

Vicarious? You are fucking kidding right?

[willstain in reply to Frankenski]

No, not at all. Just read what you write...when he...then he... all things that he may not want to do, just things that you expect him to do. He may drop out of school and be gay for all you know....so your tidy expectations will go out of the window. Concentrate on living your OWN life.

[Frankenski in reply to willstain]

Eat shit Willy! So what if he's gay, so what if he drops out of high school! You have absolutely no right to shit on what I would want for my grandson.

Who hurt you? What hate do you have in your heart? Do you even care about anything or anybody?

Let's just stick to the cancer, huh?

[willstain in reply to Frankenski]

Too many questions. I just loathe people who project on to the young what they themselves missed out on in life or think what is best for the individual to their way of thinking. I am just saying, stand back and let it happen, better not stick your ideas into a young mind. Encourage him in what he wants to do.

[Frankenski in reply to willstain]

For gods sake, man! I'm 58 years old, I have a lot to live for. You can stick your head in the mud, and be happy doing it. I don't play those games!

[willstain in reply to Frankenski]

I am not sticking my head in the mud and yes, in deed, you have a lot to live for, so get on with it. I have never enjoyed games from an early age, they are at best a pastime and at worse time wasters.

[JamesAtlanta]

You have a great goal - now it’s time to make it a reality! Go get ‘em!😊

[KingRasP]

Cheers! Best wishes, I am learning a lot of this is mental attitude.

[Hidden]

Truely remarkable..

[Apollo123]

Positive post and an outstanding testimony to what can be achieved. You are blowing the stats out of the water! Keep up your inspirational journey. 👍

[j-o-h-n]

Frankenski ---------> FIST BUMP <----------- Me

Good Luck and Good Health.

j-o-h-n Wednesday 01/10/2018 1:52 PM EST

[dockam]

That's so great to hear of success here. Keep on keepin on and F*ck what others say!

[Frankenski in reply to dockam]

We're all in the same boat, why f it up more than it is?

[erjlg3]

Congrats Frankenski! Always have something to look forward to. Never let anyone dull your SPARKLE 😁

I'm so glad you're feeling good!

Jackie