I couldn't come up with a decent title...
The past couple of weeks have been difficult to say the least. The eye tics haven't got any better. Every time I find a coping mechanism, it throws something else at me. I didn't even think it was possible but now my eyes are actually de-focussing and I am certain it is a tic because I had an eye test last month and it all looked great physically. I have got pain in my eyes, the muscles around them and I keep getting headaches. I am very worried about the strength of the tics. Could they damage my eyes permanently? There is definitely a lot of strain being put on them at the moment.
It has been snowing as well which only added to my problems. When your eyes are blurry, it is difficult to see where the kerb ends and the road begins. When both of these are buried in 8 inches of snow, that makes things that much harder! Snow puts me in a bad mood anyway. I hate the stuff. I am too hyper to spend too much time in the house! Ralph hasn't particularly enjoyed our recent snow either. He hasn't come near me the entire time!
Anyway I am hoping that this will all stop soon. I have a meds review next week and because my mood has stabilized on the current medication, I will possibly be trying the aripiprazole one more time. I have decided this is the 100% last time though. If I get the side-effects as bad as I did last time, I will not stay on it. The tic reduction was not amazing enough to warrant 24/7 nausea, dizziness, headaches and exhaustion! I seem to react to these things. The fluoxetene (AKA Prozac) has not had any negative effects on me at all, but I hear that other people have had a nightmarish time on it. Everyone is different after all.
With great thanks to the Windows narrator and speech recognition services which have helped me to type this!