After voluntarily seeking a great psychologist I can almost diagnose myself.
I had the worst IBS ever, for many, many years I have suffered, lost jobs, missed out on vacations, get togethers, shopping and living in general.
My physician suggested I speak with a psychologist regarding my extreme anxiety issues. I have medical and social anxiety. This I knew but could not control. After a horrible year in 2014 it escalated to the point I was scared. After losing my job and multiple ER trips I decided I could no longer live that way.
My entire life I have been a perfectionist. My house, yard and car are spotless, not one hair out of place, I will throw out a dinner and start again if it doesn’t taste to my satisfaction and I could go on and on. All of this because of what others may think of me? Or is it what I WANT them to think of me? Why couldn’t I be like friends I knew that could care less about the dishes, laundry or what they look like at least they are enjoying life!
I scrolled through my childhood, teens and adult life and found that I am a control freak and a perfectionist. Guess what?
I had to make some heavy duty lifestyle changes, retrain my brain and put myself first!
Life for the last two years has been like starting over as a “normal” human being!!! I am shopping, going on trips, visiting and dining out.
Oh I still have IBS I just don’t fabricate things that “could” happen and I don’t worry if they do. Life is too short too worry about what people I don’t even know think about me. IBS does not define me it’s just a small, minuscule part of me, no one is perfect and every single person out there is walking around with their own problems (many much worse).
I know this is long but in closing: Going to a psychologist for five or six visits was an eye opener because he simply asks questions and you come up with the answers. It’s amazing what I already knew!! I cause my IBS with anxiety, I am the only one that can control that. Drugs only heighten my anxiety. I started this and made myself sick so it only goes to say that I too can reverse it and have!!!! I hope this can help just one person out there that is suffering and needlessly missing out on life. It’s all a state of mind, please do whatever it takes to enjoy the short time we have here on this earth!