Things have gotten a little worse honestly... all of a sudden I just kind of gave up hope for any weight loss. Because of that I’ve been binging every single day for a week now. Big binging too. But a couple days ago I started purging to make myself feel at least somewhat more happy with myself but it’s not helping. I also never have a motivation to get up for anything anymore.
I hate this and I want to get better. And I have all the tools to do so but for some reason I just can’t. For example my parents every single day make lunch at (12) and dinner at (7 or 8) but I can’t help but feel the need to binge in between those times. Like I can’t have a tiny snack either because that will lead to be like fuck now I gotta binge. Sometimes I feel like the only way to lose weight is not to eat at all and i know that’s stupid but that’s how I feel.