I’m out of control

Hey, im 14, female, 5.4 and weigh around 8 stone. I’ve lost 2 stone in the past 2 months (part of my story is a couple of posts back) but I think I’m getting worse I’ve started doing this thing and it sounds really disgusting but I chew food then spit it out just before I need to swallow it. This has led to me eating one small meal a day and that’s it. I’m currently doing around 12 hours of dance a week aswell as around an hour extra of workouts. My weight has significantly dropped i knwo im still fat, heavy and overweight but I’m starting to get a bit more worried. I’ve found myself restricting a lot more and I’ve cut most carbs as well as any type of chocolate or crisp out of my diet. I want to lose around 2 more stone but then again I can’t keep feeling like this as it’s destoryiny me. My friends often ask why I don’t eat my lunch and I tell them I just eat it when I get home and they believe it. I haven’t eaten lunch since around April. I haven’t spoken to anyone about this and i don’t know if I should coz I just want to keep losing more. I probably don’t even have an ed coz I’m so fat but there might be a chance and I think I’ve realised I do need help because I’m so down and people have stated to notice something isn’t right

[crazycrossstitcher]

Talk to someone asap - at your height you are not overweight and clearly you have issues around your body image and your eating. The amount you are losing - the amount you are eating - your exercise regime and the other habits you are developing all indicate you have and ED and this is an illness needing treatment now - so please talk to your parents, a school counsellor/nurse, your GP - but get some help and get it now.

[Kessa]

Hi Autumn,

I' m glad you posted how you feel as I can imagine It must be difficult to talk about It. What you do it's not disgusting and I think you don't have anything to be ashamed of. Other people suffer from it so know you are not alone and you're welcome here but i think it' s painful to go through and takes away your time and energy and can make you suffer a lot.

I m sorry to hear you have to go through this when you could be enjoy dancing and people around you without all these thoughts

How do you feel about people noticing something is not right? Aside from the weight and eating do you feel you need help?

Best of luck honey x

[Blue123]

Please get help . I chew and spit food out all the time . It is addictive and compulsive, tell someone as soon as you can , you are not fat and you need to get help with this asap. Take care