Advice please?xx

[patdandTOP]

Hi. I think I have anorexia and bulimia but I'm scared to tell anyone. My friends know because they see me bin my lunch and they see me run to to the toilet after I've eaten. They've even see me faint a few times at school. But I don't want to tell people. I'm worried they'll judge me or think that I'm too fat to be anorexic. It's hard with my mom and dad too because at first I wasn't careful and just refused to eat and now they monitor my eating. I recently got medical help for my anxiety and last week my GP weighed me and noticed that I had apparently lost more than a stone in a month. She asked me if I was anorexic or bulimic because having anxiety and the wight 'loss' are apparently medical red flags. I was too scared to tell my GP what I thought because my mom was next to me. Also if I tell my GP what I think then they will obviously tell my teachers and I don't want people to think I'm being an attention seeker. Can anyone tell me what I should do? Any advice? xx

[lou122]

hi, Talking through experience, recovery from eating disorder is a long and complex process but 100 percent possible with the right help and support.

It sounds like you are worrying about the wrong things. The problem with an eating disorder is, it is a mental illness and a progressive one, that pulls you into a downward spiral, very quickly.

Anorexia and Bulimia are all about you having some control in your life but it is an illusion and the disease steals away your ability to reason in the end.

You are then left in a state of no control over your own life.

ring a helpline like BEAT and start getting on the road to recovery, while you can and are still in sound enough mind to make decisions for your self.

Being mentally ill is a very lonely and frightening experience. Get some help. Don't spiral down any further. It doesnt matter what you weigh, there is so much help out there for you, you just need to seek it out and accept help.

Mental health charities, such as MIND ect are good place to start. If you dont want to talk to your doctor or parents, find an organisation that will help you.

Out of all the mental illnesses, Anorexia and bulimia has the highest death rate, if you survive it, it will steal your chances in life away. Don't let the disease win, fight it any way you find you can.

[patdandTOP in reply to lou122]

Thank you so much xx

[crazycrossstitcher]

You have clearly recognised your problem - and I know from experience that admitting it, although devastating at the time - and painful with my parents - it was the best thing I ever did - I was not rejected but accepted and loved. This is a mental ILLNESS - and needs treatment by specialists - so do try to get some help - BEAT and ABC both have confidential helplines - give them a ring - but whatever you do - don't think you can cure yourself - I tried for years and the disease nearly killed me - so please do seek help - telling your parents might be painful - telling the GP might be hard - but the alternative is much much worse I can assure you. Be brave - don't let this illness take your life away.

[patdandTOP in reply to crazycrossstitcher]

Thank you so much xx