Anorexia, depression, insomnia, body issues......

[marikapaprika216]

So, I've had body issues for a long time. Recently, I've been really depressed and have had anxiety attacks almost everyday. I don't enjoy eating, even when I'm sad, I would rather just not ever eat anything, but I've been having really horrible sleeping habits, not on purpose, and now I'm sleeping like 4 or 5 hours instead of like 1 or 2 hours. I've been super hungry for some reason, like REALLY hungry and for a little while ate a bunch of food, not an emotional binge, but I gained a little weight and got even more depressed, so I stopped eating again, plus my brother, who I'm living with, said I was eating way too much, so I got even more insecure, so now I'm not eating very much at all, and I feel hungry, but I feel guilty for eating all of the food the few days I was eating a lot.... and I have tons of anxiety, self hatred, feelings of worthlessness, anger, I don't feel any control over anything, so I use not eating as a control thing, and I don't know what to do. I'm completely obsessed with food and not eating, if I eat a lot I get really depressed...