Reflection and Action and Grattitude

[Bagama]

All my life I have been a worrier, from a child to a teenager, an adult ,a wife , mother ,grandmother now an OAP. worry and more worry .When do I stop, how long is a piece of string ? When did my worry turn into pure pain , at what age did it really start to activate, this horrible condition , I was awarded the PMR medal in 2014 after months of battling various sections of this condition ,the ongoing stress and at times isolation , pain and fatigue . I cannot say I was pleased to get my PMR medal , but I was relieved at the time of diagnosis to have a plan of attack , this attack is taking longer than I thought, but I have found plenty of fellow sufferers along the way , all fighting the same battle. Stress ,worry and anxiousness all fuel this battle , but slowly I am making progress with help from you all . I will always worry its part of me but hopefully I can control it . and eventually win . then throw that PMR medal away. .

[teesher]

Hi Bagama, I love how you describe getting the PMR medal. Of course you will eventually win. No point telling a worrier not to worry but can I suggest some lovely relaxation tapes put on here by a fellow sufferer : sites.google.com/a/apps.hop...

She has a wonderful soothing voice. Just click on the down arrows. All the very best to you.

[Bagama in reply to teesher]

thank you so much , just about to down load now .

[Bagama in reply to teesher]

Down loaded the yoga sitting version . WOW, her voice is so soothing , well that is my morning sorted yoga it is . might even play it when i am on my early morning pain prowl, she might just sooth me to sleep! Thanks a million.

[SheffieldJane]

Very well put, like a poem Bagama. Everyone around you must feel super safe, with you doing all the worrying.

[Bagama in reply to SheffieldJane]

quite the reverse. my worries I keep to my self ,I doubt that anyone who knows me would mark me as a worrier, I keep my worries and thoughts for times when I am alone, no one to see ,although on a couple of recent occasions my mask has slipped . That is why one of the beauties of this site is the fact that ,we can express our feelings .we are ALL facing this together. for once we are not the only person in the room , caught up in pain and putting on a brave face ,hoping no one asks us to do some party piece which to them is a breeze but us is almost impossible . We all understand .

[S4ndy]

"Early morning pain prowl" love it! So get this xxx