I've been reluctant to mention it... because obviously I didn't want to jinx it, but I have actually felt "not so bad," for the past 4-5 days. (Shhhh, I don't want "She that shan't be named" to hear this!)
I had been tapering down by 5mg every 10 days; and I was continually left feeling like "crap." If it wasn't the side effects from the Pred, it was the horrible withdrawal symptoms, from reducing the Pred. It seemed I no sooner started getting used to the lower dosage, it was time to reduce again. Ugh!
However, I was told that when I got to 50mg, to hold there for 30 days. So I've been holding at 50mg; and I've been holding now for 15 days. And I gotta say, "I don't feel half bad."
I seem to have more stamina and my energy levels are higher. There have been long-ish periods during the day, where I feel "normal and "like myself."
On Wednesday, I walked into town and decided to treat myself to a Chai Latte. I sat outside the cafe, right on the High Street, people watching and enjoying a beautiful, sunny, Spring day. It literally bought tears to my eyes as I sat there and it hit me that, I FELT NORMAL. I was just a normal, regular person sitting in the sun, enjoying a Chai Latte and it felt soooooo good! Such a simple pleasure!
It's not been every day, and it's not been all day, but it's something right?
I am learning to be thankful for each of those precious moments.
Have a supercalifragilisticexpialidocious Sunday!