cancer & me

I have written several blogs about my diagnoses these can be seen

on . My way to deal with this unpleasant revelation was initially to go into panicky depressive mode but as I have no symptoms & the tumour has not grown perceptibly in the last few months I have decided that as it is no curable I will live with it for as long as possible. I have refused chemo, changed my diet radically and I commune with my cancer ( tell it that if I die so will it so there is no percentage in killing me!) This seems eminently sensible to me , i only hope the cancer concurs! I am a writer of novels, poetry & articles so I expect that this way seems sensible as I can carry on working & enjoying my life. Should the situation change, become painful or interfere with my life I shall change tack & take any treatment that is offered. In fact now that I have changed my diet I feel healthier than I have for years. I hope to live for a very long time with my cancer - I have much to do & am keeping a diary of all the joyful experiences in my daily life - - joys that I would have taken for granted before. I am not a natural Pollyanna but to me this is the only way I can deal with the big C.

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  • Hi Flooziefoster,

    What a wonderful attitude you have. I couldn't agree with you more! If you haven't already discovered it there's a book that I think you would really enjoy...Radical Remissions by Kelly Turner.

    Your cancer may be termed "not curable" by the medical profession but there are many people out there who have gone on to cure themselves by other means or quite simply lived with their cancer. There is so much we can do to help ourselves and medical treatment is only one aspect of the story.


  • Hi Brownlow thanks so much for you response. I will read Radical Remissions with interest. I dislike the gloom that surrounds the subject of cancer & the sadness of one of the doctors confirmed me in my attitude. I am afraid my attitude annoys some people so it is good to hear reassurance.

    Thanks Mo xx

  • I feel exactly the same about the negative attitudes towards cancer amongst medical staff and people generally. My attitude also annoys some people, but it is a waste of my energy to feel down or bad about the situation. In fact, cancer has been a great, great teacher. If only more people could use the experience positively!

  • Dear Floozie (what an amazing name) I love it and your ballsy attitude to wards your cancer.

    I have a deep feeling that your cancer will not dare to invade your body for much longer.

    I've just looked on your you I am so a writer. Keep healthy and positive and enjoy your life. And so what that you may upset some.......I would suggest that thats there problem. Words from a song the Greenham Women sang comes into my mind....."The spirit is strong she goes on and on and on...."

    much love to you


  • Dear Floozie,

    Thank you for sharing your website and experiences on here. It sounds like you are doing lots of things to support yourself at the moment by looking into nutrition and taking on a determined response to your cancer.

    You may be interested in some of the services we offer at Penny Brohn Cancer Care which go into a range of techniques you can use to support yourself including meditation and relaxation sessions and physical activity which are all designed to support the immune system. The courses are for people at any stage of their cancer journey and work alongside medical treatment as well as supporting those who have finished or choose not to undergo treatment. We hold Living Well with the Impact of Cancer courses as a residential from our centre in Bristol and in different areas of the country.

    If you'd like more information please feel free to contact the helpline on 0845 123 2310 or

    Best wishes,

    The Helpline Team

  • Sorry to hear that! It is your choice for sure whether or not to take treatment & you are entitled to that. I have Non-Hodgins Lymphoma & it is not cureable either. I took treatment for a year & it put it in remission and I have been there for 4 years now. They say that I only have up to 15 years to live if I am lucky so I live each day as if it were my last & do not dwell on it & that's how I deal with this. I still am not sure if I would do the treatment again even now. I guess when it happens, I will think about it again. GOOD LUCK with your lifestyle change & I hope it works for you

  • Although I had very major surgery and then one cycle of chemo, I have gradually developed a similar attitude to you with regard to cancer. They could not remove all the cancer, and I do not know if it is growing or not because what is left was too small to show up on scans when they finished the surgery. However, I am living with it, negotiating with it (not fighting it) and have changed many things, most noticably my priorities in life. Although I accomplished a great deal before the diagnosis, I now realise how much stress I experienced (largely through mistreatment by others, I have to say) and I now avoid it at all costs. I also write, meditate, enjoy the positives, ignore the negatives, I live more in the moment and take more time to appreciate beauty. It may get me in the long run, but I have to remember I created those cells myself and there is no point in hating part of myself. I am researching a book on the Philosophy of Cancer. Are you interested in talking?

  • Yes I an interested in talking & like you I feel I must prioritise people who are good to & for me.

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