It's been sometime since i've logged on to the site. I felt as though I was plunging too deeply into my disease, our disease. So I've been trying to hide from the reality of it all and carry on with work , home , etc.
Problem is there is no hiding, none that helps anyway. Ignoring the facts have left me floundering. Feelings of inadequacy in all aspects. Beating myself up daily for falling way short of expected performance, again everywhere.
Jupiterjane....you opened my eyes again, reminding me I am not a failure of my own doing. The tears that fall and all that is left undone are not signs of my incompetence, rather a daunting reminder that it is not my fault. If only there was a way to defeat the pain, the fumbling with the simplest of tasks, the lack of focus and energy.
My profound thanks to all of you who continue to be open about this awful condition. You all are a source of comfort and inspiration!.
Godspeed to All