CT tomorrow!

[Hairlessbeauty]

Morning ladies,

Just I'm having ct tomorrow morning and I have such a bad feelings..... Just can't focus on the other things, and can't calm down. Why we have to go through all this things 😢

[Missfitz]

Dear hairless beauty. Love your name. Try your best to look on scans and tests as your friends. They're gonna point you in the right direction whatever the result. Did traction may

[kittie]

I know it is easier said than done to say don't worry because believe me every time a CT scan is mentioned our minds go into overdrive. I have had a few clear scans so all I can say if the worse happens you are a strong Lady and will once again get through whatever is thrown at you . On the plus side it is probably the doctor been over cautious which is a good thing. Take care you will be in my thoughts. Phil.

[Hairlessbeauty in reply to kittie]

Thank you so much for good words. I had few scans after treatment and they were clear and also I didn't worry to much before. Just this time I have bad feeling. I don't feel to well last few weeks as well, itchy skin, bone pain, pain in my stomach, my arm Hurst and is a bit swollen. And it's a year since I've started chemo, so I've been clear for a while. Emma's Hannigan and your story kind of scaring me as well. Just I'm so afraid it is back!! Awaiting and not knowing is the worst.

[TrishLey]

Hi There,

I'm sorry you are feelong so down. It is a constant fear getting the CT and waiting for results. I read your blog and looked at your site (and yes I will be ordering some hats and scarves: beautiful) thanks to Kittie. You are a strong brave lady and its ok to be down just try not to let it weigh you down too much.

Thnking of you , best wishes,

Trish xxx

[Hairlessbeauty]

Thank you Trish,

Unfortunately It's constant fear to the rest of our life! We all got one extra baggage, even if we haven't asked for it 😢.

Take care and be strong!!

Zaneta xxx

[Hidden]

Hi Hairlessbeauty, I love the name and also love the idea of you making time to design some lovely hats for us. Thank you for that. Yes it was my turn last week, I was okay until I got up Tuesday morning and then didnt want to go but deep down I knew I had to as wouldnt get away without one. So I behaved and went and drank the water or whatever you call it. So really the radiologist made it very easy as usual for me. As my hip was giving trouble, my gp had requested hip xray so got two for the price of one. While I sip the drink, I think of the lovely cuppa and toast I can have in the canteen when its done. So now I wait another week for the result. It is an anxious time in our lives and one we unfortunately have to live with. So have a nice dinner tonight and go in tomorrow and think of the toast and tea you can have afterwards.

[Hidden]

I posted above without reading your profile. I have to say I am flabbergasted at your story. You have been through some very hard times but you also have come out the other side. You are one brilliant lady. I attend an Arc Cancer Support House in Cork and they have some fabulous counsellors, light reflexology and Mindfulness Courses. I finished one of these courses at Xmas and check back in every month. I really find it very beneficial. Again best wishes for tomorrow.

[Hairlessbeauty]

Hi Suzuki,

I used to attend Arc here in Dublin, found it very good. I have started mindfulnes in hospital, but had to quick as didn't work for me and actually got me more upset. At the moment I'm having one to one with oncological psychologist and I'm on the serlane. Those meeting are fantastic and hopefully I will benefit from them. For the moment I'm in kind of mess and I have very low mood. I don't feel well last couple of weeks and that why I even more scared of tomorrow's scan. Hopefully everything will be OK, which I will definitely tell all of you Ladies as soon as I will find out.

Best wishes to you all

Zaneta xxxxxxx

[Hidden in reply to Hairlessbeauty]

Yes Mindfulness wouldnt be everyones cup of tea, I am interested though in your visits to oncological psychologist, as far as I know there is nothing like that in the hospitals in Cork. I think the benefit of Arc to me was that it is away from hospital and family where I can chillax when I need to. So the Mindfulnessness is one of the therapies they do. I have completed the course and check in every month. At least I know I am giving myself some me time then which makes me feel good.

[HogwartsDK]

Zaneta,

Best of luck tomorrow!

Dx

[Hairlessbeauty]

Thank you

Xxx

[thesilent1]

Hi Hairless beauty, I've just read your profile. Wow. Brilliant.

I am stage 3b. I think its only natural for us to feel anxious about the CT scans and the results they might bring. We are only human after all. I think though when you are having wee pains and niggles the fear and anxiuety increases. I hope the scan goes well and your fears are unfounded. However, if they do amount to something, remember, you are one strong lady, you got through before and you will do again.

I'm glad you've changed your life, less stress is what I was told by my oncologist. I took retirement on grounds of ill health and I haven't regretted it one but. I do things I want to do and am enjoying my life. I love crafting and can easily loose myself in this.

Let us knoiknoiw noiw you get on.

Ann x

[Hairlessbeauty]

Hi Ann,

Thank you for nice words. I've read your profile. You went through a lot as well. This is nightmare. Why we have to go this through so many times. As one wouldn't be enough?

Take care

Zaneta xx

[IrishMollyO]

Hi Zaneta

I just want to wish you well and a hope that the worst case scenario in your head will turn out to be a product of your imagination. In the past 2 months I have been there and bought the T-shirt. It is only normal to worry as this disease is so unpredictable . In the end I found out I had swollen lymph nodes which indicates the disease is on its way back . The good news is that they advise me not to have treatment immediately so the bonus is I can keep my hair on for the summer ! I am glad you are seeing an oncological psychologist as I dont think I would have coped without mine. I can put away the PJ s I bought for my return to hospital . I will stop planning in my head what hymns I would like for my funeral. Also Zaneta all those pains I listed to the oncologist last week were dismissed as having nothing to to with Cancer. I did find that living in the now really helps me . It's not always possible though as I discovered recently but I hope I am back on track again. I hope you don't think I am being flippant about your worries . I just want you to know that you will get through the dark clouds and enjoy the sunshine again. I will be praying for you.

XXX

[Hairlessbeauty]

You are absolutely right. I know we have to live here and now. Don't think and worry to much what the future will bring. I know the theory. I have problems with practice 😉. That's the plan for me and my psychologist. To teach me how to put bad thought away and live a moment. I'm jealous when see the other girls can have fun and enjoy every moment of life. My plan is to learn how to do it!

Thanks for good words,

Zaneta xxx

[IrishMollyO]

You will do it Zaneta. I know you will because you seem like such a strong person . It's not easy and sometimes we don't succeed but we have to get up and start again . You know that everyone on this site will be here for you when you just say the word. Good luck with your results . Take care

XXX

[Hidden]

Hi

I hope all goes well with the scan - it is always such an anxious time!

Juliet

[Lorent]

Wishing you well, you are such an amazing lady, I am just beginning my journey, after reading your story, I can only hope I can be as strong as you have been, will keep you in my prayers.

Take care

L x

[Hairlessbeauty]

Sorry to hear that you are only starting the journey. Hope the road won't be long and to hard. Be positive and strong. Best of wishes to you and your family

Zaneta xx

[Hairlessbeauty]

Ladies...

I got the results and I AM CLEAR!!! Such a relief, hope that will last long!!

[HogwartsDK in reply to Hairlessbeauty]

Fantastic Zaneta that is just great news!!! Hope you are planning a treat for yourself now!!!

Dx

[Hairlessbeauty]

Ah, you know... No gluten, no sugar, no diary, no alcohol, no meat..... I'm joking, what's the point to live if you can't enjoy the food

[Hairlessbeauty]

Of course I will have a glass of wine and I'm just doing rhubarb cake