Hello everybody, long time no talk but in theory, I am back. Just have to look at the hundred or so emails in my account and work out if I have any money left. If only I was rich, had rich relatives or won the lottery. Perish the thought, wasted less money, but that is unlikely ever to happen.
Relationships, who do "YOU" love? Who means the most, to "YOU"? The answer, of course, is me, being "YOU" that is. If it is not, then my friend "YOU" are not paying attention are "YOU". Perhaps I am not using the right words to resonate with "YOU" I am sorry I will try to do better. We "ALL" have to learn to put our needs first as much as we possibly can, I am not saying be rude or selfish, just remember if "YOU" try to operate at 110% "YOU" are going to hurt yourself eventually.
As for relationships, I am sure "YOU" have thought for a second or two and thought of somebody. A person that stands with "YOU" somebody that "YOU" can lean on. Most importantly that can lean on "YOU" Yes I said it lean on "YOU". During those cold dark nights of trigeminal neuralgia pain, I always had in the back of my mind my rocks. How would they feel or cope if I just gave up and took that extra tablet without anybody knowing? Yes, the pain would stop. I would be gone. It would not be my problem or concern anymore, but how would they feel when they found me? It is not my place to second guess why I have Relapsing Remitting ms(RRms). It is my place to exist, and exist the best possible way that I can. My relationships are important to me, however, could I put them through such suffering? We have RRms, not anybody else, "WE CAN, WE WILL, DO our RRms", and we shall wake every morning put our foot on the floor. Smile a little and say RRms you are "NOT" going to beat me this day. Perhaps tomorrow but "NOT" this day. Have that attitude, that is the flame inside "YOU" That is how "YOU" take each step and continue your RRms journey. For the many many years to come. Now if "YOU" can find a strong rock for "YOU" to stand with half your journey is already completed.
Your RRms life is not more worthy if "YOU" have lots of expensive toys, your value is in how "YOU" exist with others, your relationships. That is how "YOU" make this life one that is well lived. Try to be somebody else's rock.
Royce
another 18 odd hours she should be home
