Lost.....

[ctazz6000]

I'm HIV Positive since July of 2016 and I wasn't given time to process the diagnose are treatment options my family decided for me and here it is Feb 2017 and I still haven't really come to turns with this. I don't know when I was exposed to the virus nor was I notified by the person who is effected. When I was tested the Specialist order lab test witch the lab messed up on my labs and they had to do them again. I've been on treatment for 4 months now and I really don't know how to feel about all this. Everyone says take your medicine and don't say anything to anyone about your infection due to the stigma that follows it. I'm stressed all the time and tired I can't tell if its the medicine are the fact that I'm clinically depress. As I look at the side affect of my medicine, I have more to worry about. My family says there here for me if I ever want to talk the problem with that is they don't know what to say are do. I let one guy know he needed to be tested and now he wants to sue me for missing work and he's trying to prove that I new. Now I worry about that. He counted back 10 years and I had to be expose in 2006. Durning that time I was with one man and its possible he cheated but when I look up how long the virus can be in your body up to 10 years before any signs show and no one really knows when you get infected until you test positive even though you have negative test you can still spread the virus. I'm so confused and lost on all this that all I think about now is death and there's no one to talk to about all this and if I bring it up to anyone they say keep taking your medicine and don't worry about......

[bad-monkey]

discuss the depression with your doctor. Keep taking your meds and follow the instructions of your doctor. Have you reached undetectable levels yet? there is no reason to try to figure out when you were infected. All you can do at this point to realize this is a part of your life. As far as not disclosing your status, you are legally required to inform sex partners. I have to really revealed to anyone that I am not sleeping with because it is not their business. Once I am more comfortable with me I might be more open about it.