Hi all , I am sort of new to this site . Was on another one but left due to not very nice personal messages to me . Anyway . I have had Cirrohsis now 8 nearly 9 yrs . My LFT tests are all good sofar , I have however been refered to see a hepetologist in February , never seen one before . Was dischsrged from my gastroenterologist two years ago . That was when I had my last ever liver scan . But I see so many posts on different groups I am in and some have said how have I got this far without transplant .. So I am wondering that myself . My Cirrohsis was caused by alcohol . Yes , I have relapsed a few times now , so further damage has obviously been done . But it does make me really think now that time is running out for me . 5/10 yrs I was told life expectancy was even though I was told 6 months 8 yrs ago . I do eat as healthy as I can but I am a bugger for cocolate .. Which then I know can also be bad due to sugar overload on the liver . Have so many things going on in my head . I even asked my dr in December what my meld score was . He didn't know .. My insomnia is bad but I refuse any meds . I have anxiety and depression , but the depression is lifting now due to my meds .. I am hoping and praying that I can live another year through .. Thank you for reading ..