Note to self, wherever you may be. Do we get the guy?
I’ve struggled a lot with having to accept that I have to stay on whichever path I choose. Currently, I’m wrestling with having chosen such an unconventional path. I love my life, I just take so much for granted. My biggest sense of hope runs light speed ahead of any delusion that could exist here. “Maybe in another life…” I tell myself.
So if you’re out there in some other universe, are we happy? I think I can continue on with this life knowing that in some other world - I get everything I want. It’d be a small price to pay. If for every time he tells you how beautiful you are, it means that I have to face another rejection. I’ll allow myself to be rejected 2 more times.
I’ll keep going on our walks and listening to him talk about this or that girl if it means that in your life he’s talking about us. I’ll keep going to his house and watching him geek out over the tokens he’s collected throughout his life if it means that in your universe, we get to climb into the same bed. I’ll pretend to be interested when he tries to set me up with other people, if it means that in your life we get to say “I do”.
Don’t even think about thanking me, just make this worth it for us. I’m rooting for you.
