I had a few days of feeling better. It was so good to feel more normal. Then, of course, followed with the same...a crash. This is so hard. I try not to think, oh..this little bit of improvement means I will continue to improve, feel batter and then...I will be like I was before I became ill. I try not to do this to myself, but I do. Over and over again. Am I in denial? How can a balance be reached? Of having some hope and accepting that this is what I have to live with....with no effective treatments and no hope of ever getting well again?It only makes it harder for me when I crash. How do I maintain some hope while not falling into that way of thinking? I miss my life before I became ill..so I know I am grieving. The losses have been so great. Suggestions please?