I am too cheerful, I don't struggle enough, I have it too easy, I don't suffer, I am too happy, wait until you get advanced, a bad advert for fundraising, must have an agenda..... believe me I have heard all of these and more....
I am 50 in two days time. It feels like a milestone of sorts, but only in a having to move up a box in the 'age range' tick. What does it mean to me, truly well to be honest I pondered on is it time to give up PVC shorts (frankly that time was 30 years ago but since I didn't heed it then its unlikely now) I guess what I am saying is it is no more significant than that.
I hold no more significance to all the negative comments I have about my attitude, my maverick 'loose' cannon reputation and my out spoken approach to illness.
I remain largely mis understood and that's because unless people engage me and bother to find out who I really am, in the same way as we all should with each other, I am not going to spend my time soothing my own way for other people's benefit. I don't have the time nor the desire.
I have Parkinsons disease, it is progressing, many many things are hard and I deal with them my way. The way I choose is fiercely pro-active, massively energised, and positive, oh I am ++++ extra. And you know what, I remain in stunningly great health all things considered. My life is extraordinary, and I am not ashamed to be gloriously happy fulfilled and live without fear.
I have made it that way and my way. It requires effort, thinking, planning and a bit of smart behaviour, all things I can control. All things I do.
I am not telling anyone else to do them, I am just saying it works for me. And actually thats all that matters.
I believe we all have it within us to find this place where we can operate, where frustration is minimised, where discipline, ideas and a free spirit keep you well. I am keeping well, so something I am doing is right.
The point of this post, is to say, I think my positiveness is a good thing. Put it another way, I am not trading it in for anything else.
Have a great day, please.