It was 4 weeks and a day ago that my partner died. Today is my birthday. It is such a horrible day, I knew he would never book a meal out or arrange anything special but would always say if I wanted to go out he would take me out. I like to think he might have done today as today is my 60th birthday and I have no one to share it with. I may have had to suggest we go out for a meal but at least we would go, now I have nothing and it is so so hard. I am sitting here crying as I type this. Going out on your own is just as lonely as sitting at home so I sit at home snuggled under a blanket to save money and keep warm. What a horrible day.