I am new to this community and am looking for some hope.
I am only 30 years old and have recently been diagnosed with emphysema. To say that I am scared is an understatement. I have a 6 year old daughter who is my world and I am terrified that I won't be here to see her grow up and I feel so guilty and upset that she might not have her mum around throughout her life. I started smoking cigarettes from the age of 12 and used cannabis heavily from age 15 until quitting 2 months ago. I am so angry at myself...I always intended to stop smoking before I hit 30....figuring that I would get away with it....how naive!
If there is anyone out there who was diagnosed at a young age and is still going strong, I would appreciate some words of wisdom as to how best to cope with this disease. I don't know the complete extent of my emphysema yet, as I am waiting on results of CT, PFT and alpha gene blood test - all I know is that the X-ray showed "significant emphysematous change and small nodules in both lungs" and I am having a job to catch my breath all the time - I think they call this oxygen hunger?
I am so scared and feel helpless....I don't expect any sympathy, after all, I brought it on myself....I am just looking for some hope and positivity...if there is any?
Thank you to any one who replies...it would be great to talk to people in the same boat as me.