Hi everyone, just trying to take a few minutes out and thought I would come on here and escape my head and thoughts for a bit, its given me a warm glow to read everything written and to of had the support of so many during this.
As Snowygirl updated so kindly for me earlier, we are still clinging to the hope that the fact that her heart rate reducing this morning is a sign of her not having to fight so hard and not that shes going into heart failure or the infection has spread, I have been told that it is a very small hope but one that I am gladly taking and hanging onto and not letting go!
However about 5:30 tonight her heart rate plummeted and the resus team were called again, it took about an hour but somehow they managed to re-stabalise her, now I feel even more that I am living every second on a knife edge, sometimes not daring to look away from the monitors at all.
But somehow she is still here, but getting weaker with each episode and I keep thinking next time will be the last, but I will never give up hope, NEVER!
Sometimes all we have left is hope, and a belief that she can defy the odds, she has already done so on so many occasions, and achieved so many things in her life... some doubted she would do, but that only made her more determined, stubborn as ever and I hope that stubborness will get her through now.
Love to all