I've been trying to get my head into recovery mode since September but as soon as my weight gains more than 3kg I panic and revert to restrictive/binge purge behaviours. There's such a lot going on at the moment and I'm really scared if I'm seen to gain to a healthier bmi support will stop and I feel so out of control with everything. Nothing has changed yet in my relationship with food and I don't feel I'm getting anywhere with the psychologist I've been assigned.
I have never used laxatives excessively but take 3x recommended dose about once a week, usually a couple of days before weigh in. I have tried stopping but then things don't happen 'naturally'. Can anyone tell me who has used laxatives whether your body adjusts and things happen naturally in time or are laxatives required forever? I hate the bloated feeling from constipation that I get and will go the whole week without going naturally.
Sorry for the gross topic but I haven't anyone I feel comfortable to ask