Here's the thing: I hate eating. I try to eat less than 300 calories a day and work very hard to burn those calories after. I like the feeling of a grumbly stomach or just an empty one. I like working towards thigh gaps and tiny waists and sharp edges. I hate having to avoid mirrors and not being able to look at my stomach or my thighs without feeling tears in my eyes. I ache for the sharp angles. And I don't know how to stop wanting that. I don't know how to eat a meal without obsessing over it for hours and wanting it out of my stomach. I just don't know. Is it even possible to get to that point?