Hi everyone, thought I'd give this a go before I took it to the drs for a psych referral.
I've had issues with binge eating since I was a child. I've no idea why. I was not deprived of anything it was the usual scenario. Treats were allowed after dinner was eaten, I'd get a penguin in my lunchbox etc. So no real reason why but I took to taking biscuits and hiding them in my dressing gown before bed and its escalated from there. I have battled with my weight. fluctuating on occasion but generally being on the larger side.
I feel like I'm a compulsive eater. If I see it and want it I will eat it. Very rarely I can control this and I've no idea why. I do hide food and I will cram food in when I think no one is looking. I will eat when I feel low and the bingeing will most likely be followed by vomiting. It was a regular occurrence in my teens and now I have regularly started again, I'm 29.
I have hypothyroidism which puts some strain on my willpower. I managed to give up smoking last year too but even that's on my mind a lot at the moment. I just don't know what I need to uncover to be able to beat this bingeing. If it's a psychological issue do I need a therapist or can I work it out myself? I don't really know where to start but I know I need to. Where did this dependence come from? I didn't have a bad upbringing really so why did it start? I certainly suffered from some mental instability as I recall thoughts and feelings of hurting myself as a result of being told off. Sounds a bit drastic I know but perhaps I'm just prone to over sensitivity. Would do I do about it?
I'm aware of the consequence of induced vomiting and so need to steer off this path as soon as really. Does anyone else have a similar story or any guidance they can share?