Hello,
I am new to this boards but so fed up, starting to feel like I'm a basket case.
I have mitral valve prolapse. About 5 years ago I started getting worse and worse palpatations. I've always had them on and off my whole life but really started to get noticeable here the last few years.
I have had numerous ekgs, a couple of remote montors I've worn for 2weeks to a month, a stress test and echo.
I've found that I have ventricular bigeminy, which is absolute torture. Especially since I'm already an anxious person, they make me feel short of breath, lightheaded and sometimes I can't get them to stop. If I'm lucky, if I purposely cough I can get my heart to go back into sinus rhythm. I've developed a bad habit of tensing up and holding my breath. I catch myself doing it every day for no reason, and it tends to bring on the bigeminy even more.
I've had an hour a few times of afib and my heart resets itself, and i feel exhausted afterwards.
My worst fear is it going into vtach or vfib. I begged my cardiologist pretty much to send me to the electrophysiologist but they told me my burden of pvc's isnt enough. I was at 6% my last remote monitor that I wore up from 3% the year prior. It feels a lot more than that but I guess those things are pretty accurate, what i'm told.
I want to go over the road with my boyfriend and become a CDL driver. I have constant anxiety because of these things and I just want one doctor to listen to me. It's changed me, emotionally and I just want my life back. They all say you're fine. I get that, they are most likely not going to turn into worse, which I am thankful for, but what about my quality of life. I'm just supposed to live with this. I'm on metoprolol which helps them but does not completely control them.
Thank you for allowing me to rant, I just don't know what to do