Thought I'd share a little story about a symptom of extreme stress

[WiltedFlower]

so when i'm really stressed I tend to notice that I get up and I start moving without realizing it. So one day I got up with the thought of doing laundry and making a snack. But I didn't realize that I was up and moving until I was already in the garage next to my laundry. This happens with other things, too. Like leaving to use the bathroom without noticing until I'm doing it already, and there are other things too. Anyone else experience this? or have a story related to this?

[chloe40 Administrator]

I can relate this WiltedFlower

I think it's where our minds are working overtime and we're off and doing before we've even processed the thought 😀

Chloe

[Myre]

Yep, I do things without realizing it's being done, forget a thought or intention within a span of a second and then find myself unconsciously carrying it out.

[WiltedFlower in reply to Myre]

does it scare you? or do you just brush it off?

[Myre in reply to WiltedFlower]

It terrifies me, I wish I could just brush it off. Those strange unconscious actions, the constant back and forth, always having to retrace my steps. It hints a little too at the quality of my mind right now. I get confused way too easily, my mannerisms are unusual; I can't hide them. I am scared my mind is spiralling out of control. Sometimes I do feel like I am insane.

[WiltedFlower in reply to Myre]

ik what ya mean. I literally don't even feel like i'm in my own body. like im dissociating, and idk if you do that, but its petrifying; and I open my eyes afterwards, and im in a daze im so confused that it feels like ive lost this amount of time like a gap in the universe or something and its just so unearthly. i literally cant handle.

[Myre in reply to WiltedFlower]

What about this; the persistent recurring frame or mind in which you can't process thought and express emotion at the same time. I get it all the time, I get a word at the edge of my tongue I can't say but it truly is the feeling I can't translate. Then there's apathy in which I feel nothing at all, this is the worst of them all because there's no reason to do anything at all. No reason to attempt to be sociable, to smile through the discomfort. I couldn't mince words or sugarcoat when talking to loved ones. They say I am horrible that I could have done it way differently; I couldn't care less.

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to Myre]

Lots of us suffer apathy at some time Myre and having a word o. The tip of your tongue but just can't think of it, nothing wrong with either <3

Chloe

[WiltedFlower in reply to chloe40]

agreed