Sport

[Alittlelost]

So I just started back at sport and the fitness training is very intense I can feel I am more unfit then last year as I am very critical on myself I am finding it hard not to push myself really hard as that’s the way I am i generally give something my everything and won’t stop until I succeed , however I’m stuck as I want to cut back on sports during recovery but it’s as though my mind is all or nothing I can’t not be the best and I can’t stand back and watch myself not achieve highly , I know this is an irrational thinking and it is the part of my personality that makes me vulnerable to the eating dissorder I have as I am very all or nothing , although it is a positive as it has made me do quite well in all things I try I can see it being a negative in this case I try to remind myself that I need to be kind to myself and not succeeding doesn’t mean I’m not trying or failing but I’m finding it very hard to truly believe and deal with

[crazycrossstitcher]

Know how hard it is not to want to "be the best you can" - and as you say - perfectionism is often an anorexic trait - from my experience we often set goals so high we'll never reach them - but put all our energy into the attempt at the cost often of our own health and well-being. I gave up work and now do voluntary work a few hours a week - that took some real hard mind bending as I saw it as a failure not to work flat out run and house etc etc - but having a husband who can easily sit for half an hour doing absolutely nothing - has taught me that relaxing, enjoying yourself for pure pleasure with no objective is actually OK - and can actually be rather nice and certainly better for recovery. So maybe for you its about redefining your goals - setting your goal and eyes firmly on recovery and that being the thing you truly succeed at - and the sport as an enjoyable extra at present - just think what you could achieve with sport if you are truly fit and healthy! It's deep breaths - take a step back - set new goals for the time being.

[Alittlelost in reply to crazycrossstitcher]

Thank you so so much for putting the time in to reply to me I really really appricate it and yes I do think you are right and I need to realign my goal if I put as much determination into recovery as I do other things, I will definitly try to relax more and look after me I do find it hard to stop and don’t do well doing nothing i need to start practicing relaxation thank you so much again !