I am feeling very selfish for posting this, My Dad has had his date for the op, which is next week, and i feel nervous, for many reasons. I also feel selfish for thinking like this as he is, so far, one of the lucky ones.
I am nervous because i have been reading a few posts recently about people going in for the op, all prepared, and then this being abandoned due to the cancer spreading and not showing up on scans. I am so worried.
My Dad is so ridiculously well at the moment, he is almost 5 weeks past chemo now, and he is almost back to feeling himself. His eating is better than it has been in months, he can eat everything, he is riding his exercise bike 10miles per day and walking my dog for me now that i am back at work. He often picks my daughter up from nursery and can more than cope with her on his own, and she is a very demanding 11 month old.
I am trying to be positive, as i have managed to all along, but the dread and worry is now creeping in that they will go inside and abandon the op.
I feel so deeply sad for those who are in worse situations at the moment and i feel terrible for this almost attention seeking post, but i can't help but need a little bit of reassurance.
I hope you are all well.