Hi everyone, I'm new to this site and really just looking for somewhere I can talk to people that might understand how i'm feeling. I was recently told that I have chronic hep b and I just don't think i've been handling it well at all.
Honestly, i'm already quite insecure and wouldn't consider myself to be as self-confident as my friends so receiving this news really has been a blow. I'm still waiting for my detailed results to come through which will provide clarity on my viral load etc., but I just feel like i'm not going to find a man whom will accept me, knowing that I can infect them. I told some close friends about my diagnosis and they keep telling me that i'll find someone, but that's easier said than done.
I can't bring myself to approach/interact with guys because I don't want to start liking them and get rejected. My biggest fears are infecting someone else and being rejected. I feel damaged. I am certain i'll stay alone and that truly scares me. I keep hoping that the hepatologist will tell me they've made a mistake and misinterpreted/mixed up my results, but I know that's not going to happen.
I've had a look at other forums and seen posts by people who are living happy, married, lives and as happy for them as I am, I still can't help but wonder if i'll ever have that too. I'm struggling to accept this so can't see how someone else will.
Also, i've been trying to find support groups in London but haven't been able to. Does anyone on here know of any?