Alone and Afraid

Hi! I am Lostagain66. I have been dealing with mental, verbal and physical abuse, as well as being stalked by same person. I have lost 4 jobs due to his stalking me on the job, harassing my customers as well as me. He was a cop until he physically hurt me so bad, he was arrested, sent to a psychiatric hospital, where he had to stay for 30 days. All of which cost him his job on the force. I relocated 4 counties away and he still found me. I have had restraining orders, that did no good. I even changed my appearance, traded my car for something he would not recognize, and still, with his connections from the police dept., he has always found me. I am scared of my own shadow now and stay in my home as much as possible. I am barely surviving now. I just lost my mom in March and have lost all of my elders within the past 8 yrs. So I have no one to turn to. I have lost friends because of him and my situation. I was diagnosed with PTSD, Severe Anxiety and Depression. I don't know where to turn or what to do anymore. I used to be a very strong woman and could handle almost anything. I have lost a son, and I thought, if I can survive that, I can get through anything. But I was never prepared for this kind of life at all. I have lived in GA since 1997 and have tried to get help. But everywhere I turn, I can't find the right kind of help. I am unable to do this on my own. I need help.

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Hi, you are still strong because you are here trying to find ways to keep yourself safe. I'm not sure where GA is but do you not have local domestic abuse support or a refuge you could go seek help from, even online help is available. I was struggling until I found the right support, it takes time to do that and when your dealing with the pressure from him your mind isn't clear on help you can get or should I say mine wasn't at the time. I know you have said you have tried to get help and can only imagine how hard it is for you. Could you not confide in a neighbour or family? It must be a struggle to focus on anything with all this going on. keep safe.