Strange or Not so Strange?

[8L0ND1E]

I haven’t written in awhile. I disconnected it seems like forever ago from almost all social interaction, besides life with my kids and work. Work was enough for me, as I feel so awkward around people? Except in a “professional” situation. Then, there’s something common to talk about. Anyhow, I had an experience today that really took me by surprise, and makes me question my mental state in a way I never had before... So I had a pretty normal grocery shopping experience this afternoon, got my groceries to my truck and back on my way home as normal. Only, as I was leaving the parking lot I noticed a man walking to his vehicle, with a large white bird on his shoulder! He had just left the grocery store? I couldn’t stop watching him walk (his back to me) with this bird in the middle of all the hustle and bustle and his bird just chillin like he was walking around their house! I’ve worked with large birds before, and I’ve never seen anything so unusual! Immediately, an uncontrollable smile spread across my face as I watched him. I was watching at the same time for other people crossing the lot in front of me and caught the eye of a gentleman who I mouthed and pointed “did you see that guy with the bird?” towards and he smiled and nodded his head that he had as well. I drove on, slowly...glancing at the (quite tall) older man with the bird in my rear view, and the other gentleman clearly calling towards him about my noticing him. I couldn’t wipe the smile off my face the whole way home...paying close attention to the road and thinking “gosh all the lights are green for me!” My chest swollen with excitement about the man with the bird. As I drew closer to my destination, it occurred to me that I had been smiling the whole time about the thought of this man and his bird walking through the semi-busy grocery store together and the birds casual demeanor. It was amazing to me, beautiful I could say? I still smile, thinking about it. It was so cool to me! But why am I in such amazement? Have I been “social distancing” for so long, that my mental state is deteriorating? Or have I just reached a new level of conscious awareness of the beauty in life’s little surprises? Has anyone else been overcome with a sense of excitement like this, over something not exactly in direct contact with them, recently or even since this quarantine started? Am I losing it? Or am I finding happiness in everyday life? It was strange for me today...

[Hidden]

Hi ,I think it takes something out of the ordinary that breaks the spell, your love of birds has brought you back to the world. For me it is an interesting painting or gardening and nature that always makes me find my way back to the world .It's like you wandered off the path by just doing the day to day stuff. Perhaps your natural self has returned to you .I am not a therapist I am exnurse who like you have found myself ill over the last few years, finally with a brain tumour or two which has subtly changed the way I look at things at times. It is a nice feeling when you rediscover yourself and a bit you had thought you had lost forever ...enjoy relax and rediscover the missing bits .Diane

[8L0ND1E in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for your response Diane!

[Hidden]

I love birds and animals - they do make me laugh, so much sometimes - always watching google funny animals youtube!

[8L0ND1E in reply to Hidden]

Oh for sure! 🥰

[Paula-38 in reply to 8L0ND1E]

I totally agree.

[wiserlady]

Finding happiness in every day life is essential. I find looking forward to reading a good book or watching a good film or eating a favourite meal are my three favourite every day happiness makers. I also find that being supported when down is very important and regularly use the free prayer forum at accuratepsychicreadingsonli... when needing a lift and feeling a comforting arm around me, but I hate to go to people I know, am always scared they will share it with people and my secret stops being a secret and private, or start to interfere and give me a load of advice I dont need or want. Meditating helps me a lot too.

[wiserlady]

Hope you feel better now. Hope you do not mind but posted a prayer for you on the free - non religious - prayer board at accuratepsychicreadingsonli.... Everyone is going through such a hard time now, and worse with the virus and lock down. Those who live alone are struggling not being able to go out and loneliness too. I get the vulnerable persons parcel and find the doctors are quite helpful but you still have your problems to deal with. How are you coping?