I have no idea why I do these things and I can only extrapolate from what I know about myself and my attitude as to what was going through my head, but why when I am at my most unwell do I do silly things like: try to get off the ambulance trolley in the 1st aid room at Football to go and watch the rest of the match when I have sats of 51% and am so shut down they can't get access anywhere but my chest (yuk). Or decide that everyone is making far too much fuss and if someone will just let me me leave recus and go out into the freezing air my lungs will magically open up. I swear the medical teams spend half the time I am there preventing me from trying to leave. I am not being bad on purpose and I am usually surprised when told of my antics I do tend to ""know"" what was going though my head even thought I don't remember the incident or maybe I am just trying to find a sensible reason for being a very naughty patient. Does anyone else have these or am I just totally out of my little tree. Please tell me I am not only totally bonkers.