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Confused about my relationship with food

sadzreed
sadzreed

Hi, I’m new on here. I’m really struggling right now with my possible obsession for food and exercising. I’ve heard of orthorexia, but I’m not sure what to do about it. I love working out, and I usually go to about 3-4 fitness classes a day. It doesn’t feel like an obsession but when I have to miss or skip a class my anxiety kicks in. Certain foods also scare me.. I’m vegan, I don’t like to eat sugar or carbs but I eat about six times a day in small portions. I’ve noticed a huge weight loss once I started restricting certain foods, but I honestly feel my healthiest and strongest physically. I’m confused about the “obsession” and weight loss/fear and don’t know how to solve my struggle before it gets really serious; maybe it already has and I’m ignoring the fact.

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I think you know that things have changed it feels good on one level but not right on other levels and that is anorexia , it seems like it has got a hold on you and you know this too , you seem to have a lot of insight and knowledge about yourself , but you can't just shake anorexia off when.you feel like it bc it gets a grip and will not give up its control over you

Vegan and no carbs ? How that's even possible ?

But i agree you definitively have anorexia. The beginnig is like honey moon, we feel very strong, very proud about our self-control. And then at one point your body will say f*ck to you. And then to ill will take a lot of time. I went there, i was perfectly in shape, super lean when i see picture of that time i love the body i had but i was so miserable, you could see it in my eyes. Obsess by exercises, obsess by food, no gooing out with friends anymore because it would have involve eating...

And then i was so affraid to gain weight again that i continue my weight loss. Until we send me to treatment because i was litterally dying.

time to get to your GP and ask for a referral - restricting your eating to this extent on top of the exercise is a dangerous path - and can lead to really serious health problems. You need to ask for a referral to an eating disorder specialist - and in the interim try speaking to BEAT or Anorexia and Bulimia Care - but do take action NOW and ask for help before you become seriously ill - and I speak from experience.

You need to get some help asap. This is like I have written it apart from vegan but I did cut out meat fish ect. I think you are falling into anorexia. The sooner you get help the better, I left it way to long and am still struggling with it 3 years into treatment.

Please please see someone.x

You are reaching out which is wonderful! Keep talking!

I knew I was in trouble when my thoughts were preoccupied with those desires you described- to be thin , eat healthy, and exercise. Finally, I was willing to get Christian counseling, which gave me helpful, loving, and research-driven guidance. For me, I am a perfectionist and wanted control of my life, but moreso love. I did not understand that my "desires" had deep-seeded roots from my childhood and I needed faith in my life. Once I began to understand that I learned how to work through issues with my family and eventually to balance my life physically, emotionally, and spiritually! My desires are more balanced now... I still exercise, eat healthy, and like being "thin" but not "skinny":).

Would you be willing to seek counseling?

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